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I resorted to xanax when herbs did not work as I hate drugs.
Story: On Sept.1, I sold everything and bought a 1-way ticket
to leave this country and start a new life/business based in Bali
because life was not working out at all for me here and this was
my last resort to succeed, all or nothing. Even though I had been
depressed for many years due to not understanding barbaric earthly
ways, I was determined to succeed. Sept 11th we all know what
happened, and by departure day of Sept 28th, the world was a crazy
hostile place, not good to start anything especially for a single
american woman. I was a refugee from my own country with no home
to go back to. My 6 month trip was a journey of disaster, starting
in Crete and ending in India, not finding a place to settle or
able to start any business due to the crisis of 9/11 and human
fears and defenses and hostilities were at peak. While abroad
I had 2 accidents, and finally realized I had to come back to
this country. I was bruised and beaten physically, mentally and
emotionally. One month after arriving I found out something not
nice between my boyfriend of 18 years and my sister. Two weeks
later my mother died. This all was 2 years ago and I still hurt
every which way, but I am better. I never was able to talk about
these things, receive treatments or even cry. I remain in solitude
for lack of compassionate people I don't have to pay to listen
with understanding, and who can empathize with this much drama
in a single life. There's more, but...
So I take a 1/4 of a tablet varying from every other day to once
in 2 weeks...nothing else. Not a bad thing. It keeps me sane.
I had intense hot flashes every 15 minutes for 3 years! even while
traveling! It drained my life force and burned me out. They are
less now but I realize some were anxiety attacks (of course).
I am tough, but now tired. I continue to seek natural remedies,
for great emotional and physical pain to further educate myself
and others. No pity please, I turned out ok, I am loving and nuturing,
A Magical Being. I live for beauty. Every breath I take is a mantra
for peace, every move I make, a dance for Goddess. I am a natural
born Priestess/Warrior. But humanly, I am also a perfectionist
and extremely independent and want help from nature only, not
man, so I still seek a natural anti-anxiety remedy complete with
dosages, etc.
If you have read all this, I am humbly amazed and I thank you
for your blessed attention.
Xanax
replacment?? Side 5 >>>
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